Drinking

For me, drinking is hard. I never really know how it'll turn out. In fact, its never quite the same... Always different feelings and emotions driving different actions. Oh yeah, I get very emotional when I'm drunk. I'm pretty young, too young for this stuff, but still its usually its not too bad... A little cocky here, a little feisty there... Not usually serious enough to destroy my friendships. Usually.  Well I mean, once I did punch a good friend of mine in the face.... He didn't forgive me for a month. But that's okay, its not like we'll be buddies forever... In fact it looks like I might never see him again. That isn't my point, though. Actually, I don't really have a point. Except that this time I feel sad.  Really sad. Like its not gunna  be okay this time. Like I won't be okay. Maybe never.