Two posts in one day? Three extra posts this week? Yeah, I probably am insane. Oh wait a sec... I deleted the one from last night. It was kind of really horrible. Like, cruel. I hope I never use my words to destroy someone to that degree ever again. I'm a bad person... Anyways! I was going through the drafts on my cellular device, because I have alot of crazy ideas on there, when I came across a message I never sent. Now, normally this wouldn't be very interesting, but it happened to be a response to a question a friend once asked me. I don't remember the exact question... but my answer gives a general idea. Enjoy, you disobedient children.
"Hey I'm sure you're probably asleep so if I wake you up I'm really sorry... I'm tired and I cant sleep so I figured I might as well answer your question. Yes, sometimes I do still think like that. As much as I've worked on it, and as far as I've come, there are still times when I just want to end it all or cut or... something. Those kinds of feelings don't go away quickly. And the longer you have them... the longer it takes. Mine have lasted three years now...It's gunna take a very long time to get rid of that mentality. But I'm willing to put in the effort as long as I can see the end result. And as long as I can see the people I care about, I can definitely carry on. Sorry that took so long... I really don't have an excuse."
It's from quite awhile ago. I didn't want to delete it for good, because it's so true... so I'm throwing it in my virtual dump site to be saved and sorted. Yay!
"Hey I'm sure you're probably asleep so if I wake you up I'm really sorry... I'm tired and I cant sleep so I figured I might as well answer your question. Yes, sometimes I do still think like that. As much as I've worked on it, and as far as I've come, there are still times when I just want to end it all or cut or... something. Those kinds of feelings don't go away quickly. And the longer you have them... the longer it takes. Mine have lasted three years now...It's gunna take a very long time to get rid of that mentality. But I'm willing to put in the effort as long as I can see the end result. And as long as I can see the people I care about, I can definitely carry on. Sorry that took so long... I really don't have an excuse."
It's from quite awhile ago. I didn't want to delete it for good, because it's so true... so I'm throwing it in my virtual dump site to be saved and sorted. Yay!
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