Seeya Suckahz!!!

It looks like it's just Sharpie, but really

I carved it into both fists with some 

glass. The other hand is a mirror 

image. I covered it in Sharpie so less

people would ask about it... 

I think I'm going to take a break from this for awhile. I've been trying to get better. I'm tired of living like this. I've got too much anger, too much fear, too much pain. It just gets worse when I write about it now. This used to help me face what was going on, keep me accountable for my feelings; because for a while I refused to feel anything. It let me say what I needed to, and that helped me find the root of my anger. This let me see the connection between events happening or that have already happened and how I would react. But now all it does is fuel the rage inside me. It promotes the same thoughts that have been destroying me for four years. I've learned to face whats within me- now I need to learn how to deal with it. I need to learn how to heal. So this is my informal half-goodbye. I'll be back, I just don't know when. My Friday posts will still show up, because they're already scheduled... But everything else will discontinue indefinitely. Sooo bye. Thanks for reading, I guess. I dunno. I still don't like you guys.