Lethal

We both have trust issues. We've both been hurt before... badly. I get it. It makes sense that we're both super cautious about who we tell information to. It makes sense that neither of us want to get too close. And when you say that I'm dangerous for you, that you have to watch yourself around me, I get that too. Because if I'm dangerous, you're lethal. I'm drawn to you so much it almost hurts. I want to run away... but I can't leave you. I want to hide... but you'll know where to find me. I want to stay and tell you everything... but I wont let you in. You make my head a walking contradiction.You're kind of like my own special addictive toxin. If I don't detox I'll overdose, but if I stop for too long I'll get the shakes. The only time it stops is when I'm with you. Then at least I can relax and enjoy the moment, make it last as long as I can. And... I'm okay with that. I can deal with the turmoil in my mind as long as I can still come see you. Because it only really hurts when I'm away.